inspiration: the affirmation of God's call for me.
preparing for Kenya has been an up-and-down journey.
these last few weeks have been especially roller-coaster-ish.
i knew that God had called me to go this year. a couple years ago, the seed was planted. it wasn't ready to be harvested last year, but at the beginning of this year while i was doing the daniel fast, it was confirmed that i would be going this year.
but i didn't know how.
i prayed and talked to my supervisor at work. he graciously approved. one obstacle down.
and then came the meetings.
and sending out letters.
enemy attacks began.
several people in my family rejected the idea of me going.
i was questioned about my involvement in my own community and it was really difficult.
but fast-forwarding a couple months, at a meeting three weeks ago now, i had raised around $1300. that's amazing. then the bomb was dropped. "everyone should have $2000 by may 4th so we can get tickets." may 4th was in two weeks. how was i going to do that?! it seemed really impossible.
i prayed, crunched numbers, try to scramble to figure out how God was going to provide.
i threw several pity parties and had a lot of doubt.
but God knew what He was doing.
after posting on facebook, several more donations came in. holden and his family donated.
a door opened for me to have a yard sale without having to plan or organize anything. all i had to do was load up a truck full of stuff from my storage unit and show up.
i had a fundraiser at TCBY which i completely feel like God's favor was on.
a friend asked me to help do some data entry work so that i could get a little extra money.
i got a raise at work!
God completely came through.
after calculating and adding, it became apparent that God had provided $800! this doesn't even count the TCBY fundraiser or the extra money from data entry.
it was just a complete reminder that God will always provide.
and it was an affirmation that God wants me to go on this trip - to really live out the Great Commission and make his name known. i had quietly rationalized that if money didn't come through that it was a sign i wasn't supposed to go. but God blew through that "sign" and now, i'm down to needing $1000 to go.
this two-week span was also a reminder of God's grace.
i did not deserve any of it.
i was a whiner (secretly).
and a worrier (not-so-secret).
i've been trying to play God (worrying and planning)
rather than trusting God.
it's been a crazy journey and the trip hasn't even begun.
i've had seeds of doubt planted, fears of insecurity and being ill-equipped. but God quickly rooted them out. God has given me a story to share and a heart for these people that i haven't even met yet.
i still need funds and then extra for gear. but God provided in 2 weeks almost the amount he provided in 2 months. He owns cattle on a thousand hills, He knows my heart and my fears, and as long as I am walking in obedience to what He is calling me to do, i know that His favor will be poured out on me.