Thursday, May 31, 2012

what if he is right....

inspiration: Ernest's blurb about apathy.

tonight, we had theWell at the beach - beautiful night (until the bugs came out, that is). we had food, volleyball, fellowship, a bonfire and s'mores, all the makings of an epic night, really.

we worshiped some and Ernest spoke about the biggest problem he sees our generation facing: apathy.

maybe he's right though.
there are a lot of problems my generation faces.
off the top of my head, I would say obesity, divorce rates, lack of proper communication due to social media and technology.
but I think Ernest is right in a huge way, too.

I look at my life over the last few months and I wonder sometimes, "am i doing what God is calling me to do - am I passionate about Him or am I just complacent and maybe even apathetic with everything"

I look at things like church.
and my job.
and my boyfriend.

if God was calling me somewhere else, would I truly be willing to joyfully and passionately be able to follow that calling? I wholeheartedly believe that God has called me to Charleston and to Seacoast and to Hawkes and to be in a relationship with Holden, and i wouldn't still be in these places if i didn't have spiritual peace about these things. but just in general. I wonder if i have grown too complacent here?

because I'm enjoying the fruit of my life, has it made me blind to the needs of others.
in areas of serving and outreach, the way i spend my money and time.
have I become so introspective and focused on me that I'm apathetic to the needs of others?

I'm not going to say yes or no to any of the questions I posed.
I just realized tonight how much time I've been spending inwardly focused rather than outwardly focused. and spending time in either phase isn't bad - we definitely need balance in all our lives.
but it just got me thinking.
what if Ernest is right?

what are we, as a generation, going to do to fight against apathy?
what if it really is the biggest problem we face....

Sunday, May 27, 2012

financial peace university.

inspiration: just finished week 4 of financial peace university!!!

so about a month-and-a-half ago, ashley and i started going through financial peace university.
i'm not the best steward of my money and i've been convicted of that several times, but it wasn't until i started Dave Ramsey's course that i did anything about it. and having accountability has helped me stick to this as well.

well, like i said above, i have finished week 4.
in the words of dave, i've undergone "behavior modification" and i have seen a huge difference in my spending habits.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

adoption: the greatest form of acceptance

inspiration: adoption and becoming heirs with Christ

tonight at theWell, we studied Romans 8:5-14, but Ernest focused mostly on verse 14.
For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. -Romans 8:14
later in the chapter, we learn that as soon as we believe in Christ, we become children of God. Verses 16 and 17 say:
The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. -Romans 8:16-17
but the main emphasis is that through Christ, we are adopted into God's family.

i'm adopted.
i was born in South Korea, was adopted, came to America when i was 4 months old.

for me, the word "adoption" holds a strong meaning to me.
for me, it's the reason i'm here - literally, where i am - today.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


inspiration: struggling to be patient

have you ever felt like you were in a holding pattern for God's will?
i'm there now.
There is a time(A) for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens. -Ecclesiastes 3:1

it's so hard for me to wait for God's best for me, too.
i want things my way.
i want things on my timetable.
i want things now!

i guess i'm truly a product of my "instant-gratification" society. i alone in this?

Friday, May 18, 2012

today would've been the day...

inspiration: today would've been the official end to my year of not dating

one year ago, i would've told you that in a year, i would...

  • be closer to God
  • be serving more
  • be completely happy and independent
  • be fully content in my singleness

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Jesus made up the difference

inspiration: small group discussion - part three - John 2

another huge thing that came out of our small group discussion was how Jesus makes up the difference in our lives and how because the servants were obedient, they got to truly witness the amazing power of Jesus.

it's amazing, honestly, how many times i've heard the story and read it, but never thought about the awesome illustrations of God's love and mercy that it depicts. and how it alludes to the fact that when we serve, we experience Jesus in an entirely different light.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

be filled to the brim

inspiration: small group discussion - part two - John 2

i wrote previously about John 2:1-3 and how we are encouraged to stay "full" and how we must never run out of wine. we are to honor those around us and to be willing and able to pour into them.

now, here are the next few verses in this story.
“Woman, why do you involve me?” Jesus replied. “My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” Nearby stood six stone water jars, the kind used by the Jews for ceremonial washing, each holding from twenty to thirty gallons. Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water”; so they filled them to the brim. They did so... -John 2:4-7

Monday, May 7, 2012

we must never run out of wine

inspiration: small group discussion tonight - John 2

so in my Bible study, we began reading through the Gospel of John. i know for me, it's been an awesome experience being back in the word and just gleaning wisdom from Scripture. tonight, my friend Carlee led discussion on John 2 and brought with her notes from an Elevation Church sermon about Jesus' first miracle in John 2 - the turning of water into wine at a wedding feast.

it was so fascinating to learn about the true context of this passage and so for the next couple days, i'll just be sharing about the passage we discussed tonight. there was just a lot of wisdom and perspective that i got, which i'm excited about - i LOVE when God blesses me with knowledge of himself.

Friday, May 4, 2012

living on a budget.

inspiration: Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University course

so the roomie and i are going through Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University course.
sometimes money is a "four-letter-word" and i know that honestly, i have failed to be a good steward of mine and it's quite disappointing. considering i'm a recent college grad who is doing very well for herself (at least, by her standards), it disappoints me that i 1) seem to be living the paycheck-to-paycheck lifestyle when i don't need to and 2) have no savings/emergency fund built up and 3) i am getting really good at using credit cards rather than cash.

so per this week's lesson, i found an accountability partner (my roommate), mapped out my budget for the next two weeks (until i get paid again, at which point, i'll put together another budget), and accounted for every cent in today's paycheck.

i'm confident that since i have accountability and the desire to become more financially free, that this will go well. i'm typically pretty good at exercising self-control when i want something badly enough (although, that just may be the pride talking ;)).

this is day one of living on a budget.