Thursday, December 29, 2011

dear future husband.

inspiration: a letter to my future husband and a word of encouragement to us all.

dear future husband,
i don't know who you are or where you may be right now - i'm actually sitting in the public library in mount pleasant because i don't have internet access at my apartment right now. it sounds kind of lame and it sort of is, but one day you'll realize that all my lame moments just make me who i'm supposed to be. (oh yeah, and you'll also know that i'm super cheesy and witty as well).
i'm writing this to you because i know that one day we will meet.
we will fall in love.
and we will live happily ever after.
...or not so much, really. 

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

looking back.

inspiration: the 2011 chapter of my life is almost complete.

so 2011 has definitely been interesting: in 2011

i've been launched out of my comfort zone into a completely new world.
i've grown as a programmer.
woman of God.
and as a person, in general.

Friday, December 23, 2011

2012 goals: my first video log

inspiration: a little bit of insomnia and the desire to branch out of my comfort zone.

what do you get when you cross 1AM with an insomniatic crazy asian and a webcam? this video. but despite the fact that i need to learn how to sit still and not fidget when i talk, i quite enjoyed making this video log (or as the interweb-savvy people call it: a vlog).

what are your 2012 goals?

Thursday, December 15, 2011

lessons from blogging for two years...

inspiration: Faith Overflow is two years old!!

that time has come again...
another birthday to celebrate...
except this time, it's for this blog.
(sorry, there are no candles or cake or presents)

but i do want to take a few minutes to express some of the things that i've learned over the last two years...

Saturday, December 10, 2011


inspiration: today's date.

yesterday, i wrote about 2 Corinthians 12:9.
but it's a new day, therefore, it's a new verse:
For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Again, this verse is so counter-cultural, but so powerful.
There are a lot of weaknesses that I'm not content with. 
I don't like insults or hardships. or persecution or calamities, for that matter.
But for the sake of Christ, we are made strong in them.

Friday, December 9, 2011


inspiration: todays date.

Today is december 9th.
Consequently, one of my favorite verses is 2 Corinthians 12:9. It reads, but he said to me, "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses.

We live in a culture and time that applauds pride and success. Very rarely do we take the time live humbly and remind ourselves of who we are and what was done for us...maybe it's just me, but I don't boast about my weaknesses.

I'm quick to tell others of my achievements.
But I want to hide my insecurities and doubts.
Let's not look at the warts and scars, let's focus on the beauty marks.

But Paul writes boldly about boasting in our weaknesses. Because Christ's power shines through when we are weak.
This blog was started almost two years ago at one of the lowest and weakest points in my life and in my faith. But it's a true testament of his power and his grace!! And to the handful of readers who have followed it since the beginning and to the few who know my past and my story, all I can say is that His grace and His love are truly remarkable and powerful!

When we come to him with a broken and contrite heart, God is faithful to come through for us. When we realize our weaknesses, He makes us strong. We can try to hide our pain and problems, warts and scars with facades and false images. I've done it before and still struggle with seeking approval of man instead of peace with God.

But in our weakness, He shines.
When we realize we can't make it without Him, His power is made perfect.

For me, I struggle with guarding my heart.
I invest a lot in my friendships and I want to receive some sort of return on investment. But when it comes to romantic feelings, it's hard for me to stay guarded and protect myself. I give and give and it often isn't returned.
That's my weakness.
It's led to mistakes and broken hearts.
But I've found healing in His power and willingness to redeem. His grace brought me where I am today and has radically changed my perspective and outlook.

Today, I boast in weaknesses.
For Christ's power is made perfect in them.

(to be continued)

Saturday, December 3, 2011

fathers, be good to your daughters....

inspiration: a friend on facebook posted this article.

maybe my dad will stumble upon this blog and read this and cherish every memory he and i ever had.
maybe he won't.
but one thing's for sure - (almost) every post rang true.
(i particularly laughed at the "fishing" one....let's just say the "squirming more than the worm" part was VERY true!)
my dad told me i was beautiful every day and supported me in everything i did, even if he thought otherwise, and was there to pick me up when my stupid decision backfired on me.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

"the adventure of calling"

inspiration: sermon at theWell

(Check out Simon's ministry's page)

God is calling every single one of us to contribute to His kingdom.
every. single. one. of. us.
we may not see it that way when we attend church.
but we are all called to play a unique and integral role in the body.
we are called to step up and to live for HIM.
not ourselves.
not money.
not fame.
not wealth.
not power.
not an of that.

we are called to live out of grace.
and out of gratitude for ALL God has done for us.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

who are my neighbors - pt1

inspiration: Scott Williams' sermon last weekend

I only have a few minutes before work this morning, but I wanted to share this video...

Scott Williams really challenged us with a powerful message regarding church diversity.
11AM on Sunday morning still remains one of the most segregated hours - racially and spiritually.

We're called as the body of Christ to not be a body of white believers, black believers, Baptist believers, Methodist believers. We're called to be the body of Christ! United and living the true Gospel.

We're called to love the Lord, first and foremost in our lives, but also to love our neighbor as ourselves.

And he answered, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself." (Luke 10:27) who are my neighbors? Who are those around me that I need to love as myself? Been challenged by that lately....

(to be continued...)

Thursday, November 24, 2011

50 things I'm thankful for - the 2011 list

inspiration: it's Thanksgiving, y'all!

  1. Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior
  2. my family
  3. my friends
  4. my health
  5. my amazing small group in SC
  6. my amazing small group from TN
  7. the men and women who serve our country everyday
  8. theWell
  9. Grace Community Church
  10. Seacoast Church
  11. to be employed by Hawkes
  12. clean water
  13. the ability to laugh at myself - it makes "awkward" moments so much more enjoyable
  14. the mission trips i've taken this year
  15. the leadership opportunities i have at theWell
  16. my previous sponsor children getting adopted (Maynerd and John Mark)
  17. my current sponsor children (maria and punyakorn)
  18. to be going home in a few weeks
  19. indoor plumbing
  20. a family that does not like black friday shopping
  21. charleston food
  22. sweet tea
  23. my ability with words
  24. jack's mannequin/something corporate/andrew mcmahon's music in general
  25. running and the opportunities i've had to run races with friends
  26. a fuel efficient car
  27. to be moving to Mt P in a few weeks
  28. anything made with peanut butter and chocolate
  29. the big bang theory
  30. tetris
  31. music
  32. the abundance of penguin stuff in the winter
  33. a cell phone
  34. money in my pocket (even though it's not a lot at times)
  35. chili's baby back ribs (...barbecue sauce)
  36. southwest flying direct from CHS to BNA
  37. comfortable t-shirts
  38. jeans that fit just right
  39. crock pot
  40. spiral notebooks & post-it notes
  41. pandora for variety
  42. spotify because it's amazing
  43. smores
  44. amazing weather in charleston
  45. turkey and dressing!!
  46. a queen size bed with a pillow top mattress :)
  47. food in my cabinets
  48. chick-fil-a
  49. converse <3
  50. to be surrounded by people who "get" me and my crazy sense of humor and adventure

Saturday, November 19, 2011

"for God loves a cheerful giver"

inspiration: theWell rising up to become generation of cheerful givers.

at theWell, the college/20s ministry at Seacoast Church, we have been studying through the book of Romans. we've been challenged by the messages from the pastors as they bring the word of God to show us that the lessons and principles of the Bible are still relevant for us today. sure, the book of Romans was written by Paul  some 2000 years ago, but Scripture is still relevant today.

we've been in a series called Radical for several weeks now. the name was inspired by David Platt's book Radical and it challenges us to turn away from our "American Dreams" in order to serve God in a radical way, whether it's by selling our possessions or simply reaching out to those that need it most. each week, we've had radical challenges, from tipping generously (50-100%) when we dine out (even if our service was terrible), to random acts of kindness, to giving out Bibles, etc.

But this week, we had an amazing opportunity to show the love of Christ in a powerful and amazing way...

Thursday, November 17, 2011

"fully convinced that God is able to do what he promises"

inspiration: Romans 4:20-21

a bittersweet moment for us as Pastor Chris Russo transitions out of the college/20s ministry into ministry with young married couples. but we know God is going to do amazing things through him.

that was our topic tonight at theWell - and Chris brought the heat.
when i think of "trust" and what it means to me, i have a fairly "good" picture of it.
i generally think about my parents and friends and God.
but for some, "trust" is a hard thing to think about, because in many cases, it's been broken.

abusive relationships.
unfaithful spouses.
disloyal friends.

what can we truly put our trust in these days? with greed, abuse, pride, and other scandals plaguing our news, sometimes it's hard to see the good in things. and it's hard to trust that God has a plan for all of this.

but i have hope in a God who is mighty and powerful and trustworthy!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

hoping against hope

inspiration: the sermon at theWell - Romans 4:13-18

first off, i will say that i have been slacking seriously on making time to blog and to spend time in the Word; excuses are excuses, but i will say that tonight's message was pretty powerful.

secondly, while the title of this post may seem a bit contradictory or confusing, don't's not...
we're trucking right along in our Romans study; we've been in this for 6 months now and we've gone through almost 4 chapters - so at this rate, we'll be done in 2013. maybe :P

but tonight's passage was Romans 4:13-18:
For the promise to Abraham and his offspring that he would be heir of the world did not come through the law but through the righteousness of faith. For if it is the adherents of the law who are to be the heirs, faith is null and the promise is void. For the law brings wrath, but where there is no law there is no transgression. That is why it depends on faith, in order that the promise may rest on grace and be guaranteed to all his offspring—not only to the adherent of the law but also to the one who shares the faith of Abraham, who is the father of us all, as it is written, "I have made you the father of many nations"—in the presence of the God in whom he believed, who gives life to the dead and calls into existence the things that do not exist. In hope he believed against hope, that he should become the father of many nations, as he had been told, "So shall your offspring be."

but the emphasis was on 17-18 and how God gives life to the dead. He calls things into existence that do not exist. and because of this, we have hope!!
let me say this again: Because God is able to give life to the dead and because He can call things into existence that do not exist, we have hope!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

seattle: day two

inspiration: seattle - day two.

  • Daylight Savings Ending - 1; Nikki - 0
  • As if jet lag and recovering from the time zone difference wasn't enough, daylight savings had to end and make it an hour early. while i'm not complaining about the extra hour of sleep (it was much needed and appreciated), it was quite disheartening to wake up at 5AM Pacific Time...what in the world is going to be open at 5AM ?! :P
  • but i started the morning off walking to Volunteer Park, about a mile from where i'm staying. there were a lot of cute little houses along the way!
  • got to Volunteer park and walked around; the Seattle Asian Art Museum was there (didn't visit it, but took a picture of it) - i took a few pictures.
  • i had breakfast this morning at the B&B - it was amaaaazing! fresh fruit and then biscuit and fried egg with gravy with sausage and asparagus. delicious!!

  • walked down to Pike Place Market this morning - stopped at Seattle's Best Coffee and got a Caramel Mocha (coffee is not my thing at all!) =P
  • walked around the Market - the thing is hugeee! There are so many floors and buildings - I got a caricature drawing done :) The man was really sweet. He told me I had beautiful eyes and that he liked my "beauty marks" (which i refer to as freckles, i guess. they're possibly moles. lol. i don't really know) :P
  • i walked back to Westlake Mall to take the monorail to the Space Needle - not sure why, but when i'm in new places, i love taking public transit...haha...
  • Went to the Space Needle! Took several pictures.

(their complimentary picture - they take your picture in front of a green screen essentially and you pick your own background)

  • Walked from the Space Needle to Kerry Park; up a monstrous beast of a hill, but it was totally worth it! Kerry Park isn't really a park, it's literally just a wall with a railing with some benches and a random sculpture, but it has an amaaaaaaaaazing view of downtown Seattle! it's absolutely gorgeous! made trekking up Queen Anne Hill completely and utterly worth it!

  • walked back to the space needle and took the monorail back to westlake and then walked home.
  • needless to say, my little asian legs are pooooooped!
  • once i got back, i uploaded pictures, charged my phone, and napped.
  • then i got up and went to Than Brothers to get Pho ("fuh") - it's basically this broth, soup with noodles and basil and beef or chicken (i got chicken). it was pretty good! i got a small, but the bowl was actually ginormous!! i only ate like half of it. and they gave you a cream puff. omg, it was amazing!
  • it's only like 6 o'clock here, but i am for real tired! i did pretty much everything i wanted to do while i was here in one day, so i'm excited to get to do even more tomorrow! i'll probably take a ferry/cruise around and go out on the water. not sure what else i'll do though :)

Saturday, November 5, 2011

seattle: day one.

inspiration: Seattle - Day One.
  • flew from CHS to Midway to Seattle.
  • i wasn't nearly as jetlagged as i thought i would be after almost 7 hours of flying (although, it's catching up with me now).
  • i rode my first public transit train.
  • bought something other than Hot Chocolate or Iced Tea Lemonade from Starbucks.
  • then took two bus rides to get to the B&B i'm staying at (because i got off at the wrong place the first time. but in my defense, the B&B i'm staying on is on E John St and we passed an E John St so i got off the bus and started walking, but realized that i was near 27th Ave and where i'm staying is near 12th Ave, so needless to say, i caught another bus)
  • went to Pacific Place Mall to go to Pike Place Chowder for dinner (had Smoked Salmon Chowder) it was pretty good :)
  • walked around downtown Seattle for a bit
  • i'm staying in a really nice B&B here - it's right on the outskirts of downtown (i'll be able to walk or catch the train/bus to get everywhere i want to go)
  • i definitely need to get out of the south more - whenever i go somewhere new, i'm always so surprised about the diversity and cultural differences!
  • i'm glad i did a little bit of research/reading before i came - the area where the B&B is located is pretty open and accepting of the LGBT lifestyle and i've definitely seen it since i've been here; it doesn't make me as uncomfortable as it did a couple years ago, but i'm glad i wasn't completely caught off-guard.
  • and so many asians! i really, seriously, need to get out of the south more.
i'm excited about being here :)
but super glad that i get an extra hour of sleep since daylight savings ends tonight :)

Thursday, November 3, 2011

rules of multiplication!

inspiration: First Wednesday's sermon

last night, Robert Morris from Gateway Church in Dallas came and spoke at our First Wednesday service.
he spoke about "rules of multiplication" and used the story from Luke 9 of the Feeding of the 5000 to illustrate his purpose. i'll have to remember to post the video because it was absolutely brilliant and hilarious, but wholly convicting in every sense of the word.

Friday, October 28, 2011

a house divided cannot stand

inspiration: disunity in the church - Ernest Smith's message last night.

so i missed two weeks at theWell so it was absolutely fantastic to be back last night!
last night, Ernest preached an impactful message, at least, it was to me because it made me really think about the unity/disunity within the big "C" Church and the role that i play in that.

if you ask people, "What are your impressions of the "church"?", you'll get a hodge-podge of answers. And unfortunately, most of them will be negative. i have the book (although, i haven't fully read through it) called "Unchristian" where a highly renown research group polled Americans and compiled their findings to discover that Christians as a whole are known more for what they are against than what they are for.

...and it's unfortunate...
...but there's always hope...

Sunday, October 23, 2011

modern day jonah

inspiration: Josh Surratt's sermon

i missed the beginning of our new sermon series at Seacoast "Jonah" last week
but if last night's sermon is in any way a reflection of last week's sermon, i'm pretty sure i missed out.

first off, i will confess this: when it comes to the Bible, i enjoy it much more when it comes to real-life application - hence this blog :P i know that the Old Testament is full of history and the plights and reigns and fall of Israel - God's chosen people, but if I'm honest, it was hard for me to focus and pay attention when i read it earlier this year (I've been reading through the One Year Chronological Bible this year :)).

but the book of Jonah is different (at least to me).
perhaps it's because i knew the story of Jonah and the Whale (which, actually is referred to as a "big fish" in the Bible - didn't realize that it wasn't explicitly a whale until a couple years ago - interesting...)
but whatever the reason, sometimes the story hits a little too close to home, if you know what i'm saying...
(can i get an "Amen" ?!")

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

thoughts about washington

i can't put into words what i've taken away from this experience.
i really sure didn't know what to expect.
but the expectations i had were completely blown away.

this experience was so much different than being in costa rica.
i feared the people here wouldn't be receptive to the Gospel.
they had been hurt and devastated before by Christians.
but by being the hands and feet of Jesus and serving those who needed to be served, we spoke so much louder than if we had come preaching out of Bibles.
it's been incredible to see how God is moving on the Res.

i got to talk to leah and get to know her and seeing how much God has changed her life is incredible. talking to her and being around her, i never would've expected that she would've been through everything she has.
but to see how much she loves the Lord and is trying to serve Him and to raise her kids knowing Christ and knowing that the life she had before and the lives that many on the reservation live isn't the way it has to be.

washington: day three.

inspiration: our last day on the Res

today was our last day on the res.
we started once again with breakfast at nate's mom's house - breakfast burritos.
(btw, taco time last night was not the brightest idea we've had...just saying)

but we headed out, got to the res and then made our way to leah's parents house.
we split a significant amount of wood in about an hour and a half.
we also got to pray for leah's parents in their house - it was absolutely powerful.

for lunch, sonny led us down to the most amaaaaazing place!
it was at the top of this mountain, overlooking other mountains and a lake - it was calm and the breeze was cool and it was just absolutely beautiful! (pictures will follow as soon as i can get them up here!)

but there was a lot of photography moments!
after we left for lunch, we went to the community center to drop off shoes and basketballs to the kids.
we brought like 3 suitcases full of shoes and about 15-20 basketballs to donate to the community center!

we stopped at walmart to pick up gifts for our host family.
we took a picture with our host family yesterday morning, so we got that developed and bought a frame that we signed and a card and flowers. we came back to spokane and had dinner with all the host families at a place called Pete's pizza. i got the chicken bacon ranch calzone and it was amaaaazing! i, honestly, didn't realize how hungry i was! (nothing new there, though...)

when we got back to the house, we've been talking to gary and nancy about our week and how much of an impact we made on the res and how much God has moved in our lives.

words can never express how much God has been working here.
our group was talking about everything from how leah shared her heart and testimony with a few of us at lunch today. to the respect that we've been shown by the tribe elders and how much what we've done meant to them. to us, it was just splitting wood and doing yardwork, but to them, it's SOOO much more powerful.

i, honestly, don't think i'll ever understand how much of an impact we've made.
but again, i don't think they'll ever understand how much they've changed my life.
the spirit of some of the people we've met is just overwhelming!
to know that they've been wronged and hurt by so many others, but that because of us, we have truly made an impact in the few days that we were here is just incredible! God works powerfully when we are obedient to Him!!

i just hate that this trip came and went so soon!
i'll definitely be back and i've made so many connections and i can't wait to see how God is going to move in this place! i believe our coming and being the hands and feet of Christ and serving the ones that, literally, are forgotten has brought so much hope and joy to this community!

God is going to work mightily!

i shared this with the group yesterday:
Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. (1 Timothy 4:12)

i am so humbled by the fact that i was part of something amazing that's going to take place on the Spokane Reservation. mission trips always change us and there are things that words can never express. i know that i came with expectations of serving and being the hands and feet of Christ and showing love to a people who have been hurt and devastated. but i've truly been humbled and changed.

Monday, October 17, 2011

washington: day two.

inspiration: washington - day two.

we began this morning like we did yesterday - breakfast at nate's mom's house.
breakfast was delicious!!
we stopped at walmart on the way to the reservation - i bought shorts (since i forgot to pack mine) and a fleece jacket so that i didn't have to wear a hoodie to the church service.

we helped out a a couple houses today.
a group split wood at one location and a second did yard work at leah's (one of the staff members at newspring) aunt's house. i helped with yardwork again and it was amazing to see the transformation that raking and clearing out some old brush and branches did.
her house was by the river and it was absolutely gorgeous!!

(btw, shout-out to elizabeth christmas - she and i are raking ninjas! ;))

we also held a basketball camp for some of the kids.
not as many kids showed up as i expected, but it was still a lot of fun - i cheered and encouraged from the best and favorite position in basketball is that of benchwarmer - i'm pretty much useless in basketball =P

we then delivered some axes and tarps to the senior center where we served yesterday! it was great!

tonight, we also helped set up for church. kyle and AJ led worship - which was amazing! a few of the Natives joined us, so it was awesome to be able to worship with them. and Matt Bucy gave a great and powerful message! (word on the street is that this was his first sermon - and it was awesome! proud of you Matt!)

Matt just spoke truth about how we all have those moments in life that we mark as "failures".
we all have them - those black clouds that we feel like we'll never live up to or be able to overcome.
and he taught from several verses in the book of Isaiah about how Israel had strayed away from trusting and relying on God, just as we do today - the same struggles the people of God had, we are still struggling with today.
but how Christ takes away our failures and sins and because we are sinners, we are like crimson stains, but he makes us as white as snow!
we are literally made new!

the song "Beautiful Things" (which we sang tonight) is one of my favorite songs.
"You make me new, You are making me new" is one of the lines and I love it because it speaks truth to our entire life - once we accept Christ into our hearts, we are new creations! it's a powerful statement because, like i said, we all have those "moments of failure". but because of who Jesus is and what He did for us, we are made new!!

this has been an incredible experience!
i know that God is definitely at work here on the Spokane Reservation and it's abundantly apparent with every smile and "thank you" that we get!

right before we started the basketball camp, one of the tribal council members (the vice president, actually) came out and spoke to us and prayed for us and just gave thanks with all of his heart for the things we are doing for the community. he said that serving in the senior center was one of the most respectful things we can do and it just struck me that even though it seems like i just raked leaves, that it actually was a hugeeee and powerful sign of respect. and that i'm part of the body of Christ that the elders and members of the reservation are witnessing - it's absolutely incredible!!

our night ended with listening to music in the van - everything from Backstreet Boys to country to cover songs and mash-ups and dinner at Taco Time.

i can't believe tomorrow's our last day!! i wish this was a week-long trip - i'm absolutely without a doubt wanting to come back! the scenery has been beautiful - and while the winters would probably be miserable for me, the weather for this weekend has been awesome!!

God's doing mighty things here!! =D

Sunday, October 16, 2011

washington: day one.

inspiration: washington trip - day one.

we started out this morning with a phenomenal breakfast cooked by nate's family.
we headed out to the reservation around 10ish.
we stopped to pray before we drove onto the reservation: apparently, Newspring Church and a Catholic church are the only churches on the reservation right now - 3 other churches have been planted and failed over the past three years. but we prayed for the team and for the people that we would be serving.

once we got onto the reservation, we stopped at the senior center where several of the elders lived. we were able to split wood and do yardwork for several of the elders. it was an amazing experience. most of the guys (and lindsy)e split wood; the rest of us raked leaves, scooped horse poop, and did lawn and yard work.

jen, elizabeth, and i raked leaves in two yards - the second yard we worked on was for ms. sharon. she had the most beautiful spirit and was the sweetest and funniest woman! i really enjoyed helping her and seeing her smile with appreciation at the work we were doing.

we then ate dinner at the community center and prepared for a tribal pow wow! we were all pumped!
between dinner and the pow wow, several of the team members played football with the kids (from my vantage point on the sidelines, it looked like the kids were winning ;))

but the pow wow was pretty incredible! there were large drums that were played throughout the night and traditional dancing - of which i participated and dragged caitlin in with me ;) - so i can officially add and mark "dance at a pow wow" on and off my bucket list!!

i'm so incredibly excited for what we're doing here and i'm amazed at the reception and how quickly word has spread!! people were coming up to our leaders - leah, in particular, who is on staff with sonny at newchurch - and giving names and numbers of people who needed work done.

we are going to meet and go back to the reservation tomorrow where we will be doing more yardwork/wood-splitting/etc. we host a basketball camp and then have church tomorrow evening! this has been an incredible experience - i am sore already and probably will be incredibly sore tomorrow. but i'm amazed at how boldly God has shown Himself here, to the group, and definitely to the community!! :D

i forgot to bring the card to put my phone SD card in to put pictures up, so i may have to wait to put those up when i get is literally after 1AM back in charleston and i am pooped! so please keep praying for our team - for our health - the jet lag and hard labor are definitely setting in, at least for me - as well as the people! may they see the love of Christ pouring through us :)

Saturday, October 15, 2011


inspiration: finallyyyyyy here!!!

so it's finally here - the Spokane trip i've been looking forward to, literally for months!
...and i start my second missions trip out with extreme jetlag.
for real.
been in the air almost as much as i've been on the ground these past 29 hours.

charleston. baltimore. nashville. kansas city. oakland. spokane.
i'm like the johnny cash song - i've been everywhere! ;)

Sunday, October 9, 2011

this is the story of a girl....

inspiration: a lot can happen in two years...

in december of 2009, i started this blog.
to share the thoughts of a girl who thought she had it all together.
who thought she was "good enough" to get by.
who thought she knew what she wanted.
but had a humbling experience in a relationship that changed her life forever.

i wish that relationship had been Christ, but it wasn't. although, that came later.

i realized about half an hour ago that on this night two years ago (although, it wasn't necessarily the right date, but it was a Sunday night in October), my ex-boyfriend broke up with me. thus beginning a journey that began down a path that seemed to for a brief period of time seemed to lead toward depression, but instead turned into a path of grace, mercy, and discovery of the true meaning of what being a Christ-follower looked like.

against the tide

inspiration: Completely Irresistable devotional

i'm reading through Completely Irresistable by Shannon Ethridge during my quiet time.
((i LOVE Shannon Ethridge and definitely encourage young women to read Completely His and Every Young Woman's Battle. two incredibly powerful books, especially the latter!))

but my devotional reading for today was entitled "Swim Against The Tide".
she recounts a story of a family vacation where she and her family went white-water rafting and the boat hit a pile of rocks, stopping the boat, but her daughter got thrown out and was swept away. her daughter was able to cling to a rock until the boat was set free by the guide and she was able to be pulled out of the water and back into the boat.

i loved this quote:
"Swimming against the current is incredibly difficult - both in white water and in our world. Without a rock to hold on to, we can get swept away far too easily. Even with a rock to grasp, in the midst of strong surrounding currents we can grow weary at times...Not only are we to cling to God, our solid Rock, as Christians we are called to be a rock that can help others resist the pull of a sinful world."

Friday, October 7, 2011

God is one.

inspiration: Jack (3.0)'s sermon last night

God Is One.
That was the overwhelming theme of Jack (3.0)'s sermon last night at theWell.

Then what becomes of our boasting? It is excluded. By what kind of law? By a law of works? No, but by the law of faith. For we hold that one is justified by faith apart from works of the law. Or is God the God of Jews only? Is he not the God of Gentiles also? Yes, of Gentiles also, since God is one—who will justify the circumcised by faith and the uncircumcised through faith. Do we then overthrow the law by this faith? By no means! On the contrary, we uphold the law. (Romans 3:27-31)

but what exactly does this notion of "God is one" mean?
we had discussion at our tables last night about what it meant or could possibly mean.
while none of us exactly knew, as a group, we agreed on a few things.

1) God is united through the Trinity: the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit
2) We are called to be united as the body of Christ
3) God is one in that He is the God of everyone.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


inspiration: the changing of the seasons.

this will be my first official autumn in charleston, but based on how it's been so far, i'm pretty sure i'm going to loveeee autumn in the new homestead :)

i realized earlier a few minutes ago how much i've been slacking in blog writing lately.
sometimes i'm discouraged when nothing comes to me, but i realize that we're always moving in and out of seasons of rest and seasons of fruitfulness.

i tend to write more when i'm in a season of resting.
during those times where i feel God calling me to rest, i have time to process and really focus in on what i feel God is placing on my heart.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

"where are you men of courage..."

inspiration: Courageous, the movie

not gonna lie, i've been waiting for Courageous to come out for months!
when my friend, Nise' Davies, had mentioned her son would be starring in it, i began doing my research about it. it's a movie by the same producers of the popular movie Fireproof! the main purpose of Courageous is to draw out the calling that men, specifically fathers, are given: to lead their families with Christ at the center.

it follows the stories of four police officers with different backgrounds and how a tragedy changed their lives; these men are protectors of their communities, but bystanders or even outsiders in their families. but God used this tragedy to draw them closer to Him and to each other and to lead their families with Biblical integrity. it was a phenomenal movie.

i know that it wasn't exactly for my demographic, but i am truly encouraged about how God will use this movie to challenge men to step up into the roles they are called to fulfill as fathers!

MEN: Go see this movie!
WOMEN: Take your man: husband, boyfriend, father, son, cousin, brother, uncle - whoever it may be, to go see this movie! I  believe it will challenge and encourage them to be men of courage. To step up and glorify and honor God; to challenge them to rise above mediocrity and heed God's calling for them.
So go see it!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

the great debate: the existence of God

inspiration: The Great Debate: The Existence of God - Jack Hoey, Jr. vs. Herb Silverman

this past thursday, theWell and the Atheist-Humanist Alliance sponsored a debate between Jack Hoey, Jr, Chief Operating Officer at Seacoast Church, and Herb Silverman, a distinguished atheist and professor at the College of Charleston, regarding the Existence of God. it took place at Physicians Auditorium on the campus of C of C and it was packed out!

...and my good friend jonny sharp asked me to blog about it.
(you can also check out my friend Ernest Smith's blog here)

Friday, September 30, 2011

STOP....fasting time...???

inspiration: fasting and praying and seeking

i'm an introvert.
i often get the "no, you're not..." look from people when i say that.
don't get me wrong, i love meeting new people.
i love connecting with people and getting to know them.

but i thrive on my alone time.
i thrive on time in my own head.
if i'm constantly around people, it drains me.

i hope i don't sound too cheesy when i say this, but i think God gave me the gift of introversion to make me STOP.

and think.
and reflect.
and pray.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

own your ministry

inspiration: Rick Warren's The Purpose Driven Life and a conversation with my sister

a few months ago, i wrote about a particular "ministry" that i felt God was calling me into.
i still don't have a clue what it looks like or will present itself as.
all i know is that it's deeply embedded on my heart.

and this past week, i've had several "God encounters" and this ministry of mine has been brought back to the forefront of my mind.

Friday, September 23, 2011


inspiration: Wes' message last night at theWell

first off, i must say, i need to be more intentional about making time to write.
last night's message was amazing but i feel like it's not going to be as good because it's already 24 hours old and not as fresh. but i will definitely try and do it justice!

what i took away from last night's message was this.
and it's the essential core of the gospel: GOD'S LOVE IS RADICAL!

Thursday, September 22, 2011


inspiration: a desire to see access to clean water to underdeveloped and developing countries.

The fact that over 5000 children die every day from lack of clean water breaks my heart.

I cringe when I get my water bill and complain when it's "too high".
But there are billions of people in the world that don't even have access to clean water.
...and lately, it's been on my heart to do my part to lower that number in some way.

Granted, I can't change the world, try as I may.
But God can.
...and so if you're reading this, please just take a few minutes to pray for me as I try and figure out what my part is in making clean water a reality for those who don't currently have it.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

just one.

inspiration: The Hole in Our Gospel

so i've been reading The Hole in Our Gospel by Rich Stearns.

it's my new "Radical" - like i'm pretty sure anyone who knows me knows how much i love Radical (so much so that i was under "book-smuggling-watch" when we were handing them out at theWell on Thursday ;))

but The Hole in Our Gospel is even more personal.
reading Rich's story and reading the hard-hitting facts has been eye-opening and heart-piercing.

Friday, September 16, 2011

radical circle of life

inspiration: living out a Radical faith

it changes us.

if you had asked me two years ago what i wanted my legacy to be, it would've probably been something along the lines of "i want to be remembered for my attitude, my accomplishments, my (fill in the blank)"

...a lot of the personal pronoun "my" in that, don't ya think?

but now, i want it to be about the passion and love that i have for Christ.
...not me. but Christ who dwells in me.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

where were you when the world stopped turning...

inspiration: 10th anniversary of September 11

seventh grade search class.
i remember mrs. cooper turning on the news (even though, i don't think technically she was supposed to).
saw the breaking news of the towers getting hit.

i guess as a seventh grader, i never realized how much of an impact it had and would have on the decade to follow. in my world, terrorism didn't exist - i didn't know anything about it. i was busy doing extra credit word puzzles (yes, that's what i did in search class) and making sure i didn't make eye contact with boys (which i didn't very often. middle school was awkward for me...).

...but now, looking back, it's one of those things that i will always remember what i was doing.
it's one of those moments that changed the world as we know it.

Friday, September 9, 2011

only by His grace...

inspiration: Jonny Sharp's message at theWell last night

"Am I taking God for granted?"
"Do I approach God with fear and reverence?"

Those two questions were ones that Jonny Sharp posed to us last night.
Two very tough questions.
Two questions that caused me to really stop.

...and think...

Monday, September 5, 2011

saying yes...

inspiration: Isaiah 26:8

i've written several blogs about how much of a control freak i am:

"Control Freaks Anonymous"
"my caveat for Christianity"

...and there are probably a handful more.

but as i grow more and more in maturity in my relationship with God, i realize just how much He has done in me over the last two years because i've been willing to die daily to myself and to surrender my plans in order that His will may be done in my life.

i finally buried the hatchet, so to speak, with some relationship struggles i had been having. once i realized that 1) i was in the wrong for idolizing someone and 2) coming to terms with the fact that God's thoughts and plans are much higher than my thoughts and plans, i found true peace. surrendering my desire for a relationship has truly opened doors for stepping out in faith.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

in light of eternity...

inspiration: The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

i started reading through The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren.
as much as i want to breeze through it, i'm taking the 40 days to read through it so that i can truly soak up every nugget of wisdom that he brings.

i've gotta be honest, i was being challenged to my core within the first few days of reading it; in fact, i still am.

sure, i know what my life is about - who i'm living my life for; what my "purpose" least i thought i did.

until i got to day four (Made to Last Forever):
"When you fully comprehend that there is more to life than just here and now, and you realize that life is just preparation for eternity, you will begin to live differently. You will start living in light of eternity, and that will color how you handle every relationship, task, and circumstance." (37)
...and taking a slight step back, one of the last lines for day three (What on Earth Am I Here For) truly convicted me: "You weren't put on earth to be remembered. You were put here to prepare for eternity." (33-34)

if i'm honest, up until a little over a week ago, i was worried about the legacy i'd leave behind.
granted, i want everything about my life and the legacy i leave to be a reflection of my heart for Jesus. and i still do, don't get me wrong.

but i've been shaken to the core and challenged not to focus on things here on earth, but to prepare my heart for what lies ahead in light of eternity. my time here is only a dot on a line - i will spend more time in Heaven than i ever will on earth.

life here isn't just about living life to the fullest, as i'm guilty of proclaiming.
it's also about preparing for eternity with God.
we can't go on thinking that life here is all there is - there's an eternity with Jesus that we have to look forward to! and once we leave this earth, we get to experience that!

we aren't perfect here, but as soon as we begin our eternal life with God, we will be! and everything - no matter how big or small - is preparing us for that day.

"When you understand that life is a test, you realize that nothing is insignificant in your life. Even the smallest incident has significance for your character development." (43)
When we realize that our lives here aren't about us, but about bringing praise and worship and glory and honor to God and surrendering our hearts and desires and lives to Him, we come to understand what true joy and peace is!
"When you live in light of eternity, your focus changes from "How much pleasure am I getting out of life?" to "How much pleasure is God getting out of my life?" (76)
i am continually being reminded just how powerless and insignificant i am in light of eternity. But it isn't making me sad or depressed by any means, because i know that everything is preparing me FOR eternity!

i definitely encourage you to begin reading The Purpose Driven Life if you haven't already.
it may challenge you.
it may make you re-evaluate the life you've been living.
it may change you.
but in light of eternity, isn't that what we should want? shouldn't we want to be prepared for the life after this?

Friday, September 2, 2011

humbled by grace.

inspiration: a video from theWell last night.

this is kind of part two from the message last night.
i wanted to make this a separate blog because there was just so much more that i wanted to say and express and i thought two blogs would be easiest to do that.
Check out my blog about last night's sermon here

i couldn't find the actual video that they showed - but last night at the end of the message, before we had table discussions, we watched a video featuring John Knight and his family.
Ernest sent me the link:

This was grace - short film from Andrew Laparra on Vimeo.

Here is the link as well:

his son is blind, autistic, and has a growth hormone deficiency.
his wife also revealed that she has stage 4 breast cancer.

it wasn't the bad news that struck me.
it wasn't their circumstances that made me cry (i admit, i had quite a bit of eye leakage after watching it).
it was their joy that convicted me of my own selfishness.
it was hearing Paul singing "Jesus Loves The Little Children" that made tears swell.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

wrestling with God.

inspiration: Closing Arguments - Week Two.

earlier this afternoon, Pastor Ernest tweeted: "Still writing my message for @theWell_CHS tomorrow..this is proving to be one of the most diff messages I have spoken"

i responded with: "diff as in "different" or diff as in "difficult"...i know twitter is only 140 characters, but some words you just gotta spell out ;)"

i like to poke fun at and give Pastor Ernest a hard time (mostly because in the 7 months that I've been attending theWell, I've gotten hit by him with a football, volleyball, and various verbal spears) - but i'm thankful for all the he and Jonny Sharp and Mel and Chris Russo and Wes and everyone else at theWell have done for me and all the blessings and opportunities that have come from them.

but to be honest, tonight's message was definitely not an easy one to hear. it was all about God's judgment. ...not exactly a lighthearted, warm and fuzzy sermon

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

writers block

inspiration: writers block.

have you ever wanted to write something so badly, but didn't know what to write about?
well, i'm in that boat right now...
...sort of...

Saturday, August 27, 2011

the cross centered life

inspiration: "The Cross Centered Life by C.J. Mahaney

they say "Good things come in small packages"
...but enough about me ;)
i wanted to share a book that i read recently with you.
the copy that i got was a mere 85 pages, but it's full of good stuff!

it's short.
to the point.
and full of one message:

everything we do needs to revolve around the Cross. because everything we do is a product of the Cross.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

grow deeper.

inspiration: answered prayers and more leadership opportunities

lately, i've just been praying for opportunities to be used by God in order to advance His kingdom. i feel like i do a lot, but i wanted something that would force me to grow deeper in Him. i've really felt Him placing "grow deeper" on my heart.

i've had the little kid meal sized nibbles of a relationship with Christ.
it's time for me to move up to the big kid table and start truly going deeper in my relationship with Him.

Monday, August 22, 2011

fifteen dollar challange

inspiration: God's provision will come through.

it's often said that the lower we are, the more God can bring us up.
well, i'm pretty low right now - on money.
i have $15 to my name until september 5 (my next payday and 15 days away).

i have what's in my fridge, freezer, and cabinet + that small sum of money + any creative way to make meals.

i know that it's possible.
people around the world live on less than this.

God can and will provide!
follow my Crazy Asian of Charleston blog to see the ways that i am able to stretch the $15 that God has provided me with :)

Sunday, August 21, 2011


inspiration: The Cross Centered Life.

I just started reading the cross centered life by C.J. Mahaney.
I have a feeling this could become my new "Radical" (in the fact that it's a book that will challenge and encourage me to take my relationship with Christ to the next level.

One of the quotes that has already stood out to me thus far in the 23 pages I've read is this:

"If there's anything in life that we should be passionate about, it's the gospel. And I don't mean passionate only about sharing it with others. I mean passionate in thinking about it, dwelling on it, rejoicing in it, allowing it to color the way we look at the world." (21)

I've always considered myself passionate about my relationship with Christ.
But the more I read, the more I realize that it's not the thing I'm MOST passionate about.

I'm eager and quick to talk about music, books, movies, and especially FOOD!
I'm even eager to share my faith story and the power of redemption and joy that I've found in Christ and the amazing things He has done in and through me.
...but if I'm honest, is He the center of my thoughts and actions?
Not always.

I want my life and thoughts to be renewed so that He truly is my passion.
And I pray that I can be transformed so that I may truly living a cross-centered lifed.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

blessings: the august version

inspiration: just a reflection of blessings.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

(Matthew 6:25-27)

i remember a couple months ago discussing in small group different areas in our lives that we needed to give back to God. at that time, and it's even more true today, i was really wrestling with my finances. i knew i needed to tithe, but i just couldn't figure out if i could really make it work...

Sunday, August 14, 2011

#trending11 - heaven is for real.

inspiration: our new series "Trending" at Seacoast

i'm realllllly excited about our new series at church called "Trending"
if you see me tweeting during church, don't judge me - they want us to tweet ;)

i think i'm most excited about it because it will help give me biblical perspective about topics that are relevant to me today. i'm not into politics and rarely watch the news (mostly due to the busyness of my schedule), but i do know that i need to be up to date on current events. most times i feel like i live under a rock.

also, i'm not really Bible-savvy when it comes to a lot of gray area matters.
and i'm glad that Seacoast is stepping out and addressing such hot-topic issues!
it's easy to sit back and brush everything under the rug. but i want answers.
and we NEED answers to some of the hard questions!

Monday, August 8, 2011

on mission. always.

inspiration: a conversation and a revelation.

i had a conversation the other night with brooke about mission trips.
and as i was sharing my heart, it was a great reminder from God that He has a purpose for me.

about a year and a half ago, i thought to myself, "good for jason and kerby (my friends who moved to Costa Rica to become missionaries). i could never do that."

but i went on my first mission trip to Costa Rica in January.
i'm going on another one in October to Washington state.

i'm hooked. i am blessed for those opportunities and i pray that God continues to provide the way for me to continue to serve Him in the future.

my friend the brookeface.

inspiration: my friend the brookeface.

then - 2007

now - 2011.

this past weekend, my BFF from college, brooke, came to visit me.
it began quite roughly as there was miscommunication regarding her flight to charleston; then her luggage didn't make it here until saturday. but despite all the road blocks, that we hit, including brooke losing her cell phone at the beach, we still had an amazing time.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

let the notes i choose be your favorite tune...

inspiration: needtobreathe.

i like music and i'm notorious for posting lyrics of my favorite songs as my twitter post or facebook status. but here's something else...i'm also notorious for hearing the words, posting the words, but not living the words.

i love needtobreathe.
they are a legit band who loves Christ.
their music is inspiring and fun and relevant!

but i've gotta be honest - i'm good at hearing their songs.
but how good am i at listening to their songs?

Friday, July 29, 2011

He works in mysterious ways...

inspiration: encouraged by the fact that God cannot be predicted.

confession: i've always been skeptical of the concept of meeting my future husband online.
confession: i have been and to a degree still am skeptical about the concept of online dating.

truth: God works in mysterious ways.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."

(Isaiah 55:8-9)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

faith without works is dead.

inspiration: tonight's message at theWell

tonight, we went through Romans 2:5-11 and focused on how as believers, we are judged by God. but as believers, we aren't judged for our salvation - once we believe, we are saved by our faith (Ephesians 2:8-9) - but we are judged by our actions.

Ernest spoke about how God judges our faith by our actions and how our faith is proven by our obedience. it kind of pricked my heart tonight. are my actions displaying my faith??

Saturday, July 23, 2011

purity: culture vs. church

inspiration: a topic that i'm quite passionate about: purity

the next chapter in our small group study book is entitled "In Search of a Soul Mate: Finding Mr. Right". i, along with the rest of the group, am excited about this section because i'm pretty sure we could spend hours upon hours upon hours discussing relationships, marriage, men, etc. (and chances are we will and i'm excited about that!).

granted, this wasn't meant to be an all-inclusive chapter of everything related to relationships, marriage, etc., but as i was reading through it, the last section (the topic was chastity) really brought up a lot of thoughts into my mind.

it seems like the word is almost archaic in today's culture and almost taboo in the church world, but it's something that's vitally important to anyone and everyone that wants to get married: purity.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Christians get amnesia

inspiration: a conversation from SHE-Retreat back in May and an idea that i always forget.

a girl in my break-out group at the SHE-Retreat a couple months back shared this with us:

"hold out your arms in front of you.
this is the furthest God will ever be away from you because this is as far as you can push Him."

this concept is totally true in my life. i try to push God away.
i try my hardest to do things my way.
i get amnesia.
forgetting that He is in control.
forgetting that without Him, i am lost.
forgetting that even though we live in a broken world, He has restored us.
forgetting that even when things look hopeless, He has a plan.

lately, i've been in the "how am i possibly going to get through this..." phase, and completely forgotten that i serve a God who is in absolute control.

He has a plan
Nothing that has happened has caught Him by surprise.

He will provide
He always has and He promises that He always will.

He is in control
i am not in control. i may want to try to be, but ultimately, i am like a morning mist and God is eternal. i serve Him, not the other way around.

i can try and push Him away.
i can try and deny His plans for me.
but i can't.
God is always with me.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

a woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ....

inspiration: two months into my "one-year challenge"

so, i'm two months into my "one year challenge". about a month ago, i took a huge leap and deleted some people as Facebook friends who were keeping my heart from being truly devoted to preparing my heart for my future husband. not going to lie, it was a difficult thing to do and wrestling with my season of singleness has been hard at times, but i finally feel at peace with everything.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

iron sharpens iron.

inspiration: Proverbs 27:17

"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."
(Proverbs 27:17)

i, honestly, hadn't heard the reference "iron sharpens iron" until i heard about a conference for men on the radio a couple weeks ago. but now i feel like the "iron sharpens iron" reference has come up a lot for me lately.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

a few answered prayers.

inspiration: a few answered prayers.

sometimes i get so caught up in the "gotta-do-this-gotta-do-that" moments of life that i forget to truly take time to reflect on what God's doing in my life and how He is using me.

it's hard to think that He would even want to use a crazy asian like me to reach other people and to connect with other believers. i'm pretty much the definition of a "hot mess" sometimes. i stress out too easily and i'm horribly guilty of "Christian amnesia" (i always forget that God's in control and He will come through for me!)

Saturday, July 9, 2011

blessings in disguise.

inspiration: taking time to reflect on the last six months of my life.

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven" -Ecclesiastes 3:1

...and this morning was the time that Adrian (my car) died -- well technically it was last night, but we didn't know how bad she was til this morning. (you can read what happened last night HERE).

but this turned out to be a blessing in disguise because it meant that i was able to get a new car :)

Friday, July 8, 2011

i'd sure hate to break down here...

inspiration: trying to rejoice in the midst of hard times...(btw, the title are the lyrics to a song called "Break Down Here" by Julie Roberts

so i got to see my lovely friend Kasey from back home tonight!
we went and had an amaaaazing meal at Amalfi's and it was fun to hang out and catch up!

but when i took her back to the hotel, i went inside to meet her mom; and when i came back out to leave, my car wouldn't start :(
it's frustrating because i've invested a lot in my car as far as repairs go; it's almost paid off and i'm sincerely hoping i will still be able to drive it for a long while after it's paid off...

but the dealership i have to have my car towed to (per my insurance company) is closed and they can't tow it there until in the morning. again, frustrating.

but i'm very lucky...

Sunday, July 3, 2011

letting it go. again.

inspiration: tenth avenue north's "let it go"

i've been struggling again with accepting where God has me now.
it's been easy to become bitter and resentful for not having a "special someone", especially when a handful of really good friends are getting married soon. or are engaged. or in healthy happy relationships.
not going to lie, it makes singleness much more difficult.

you are faithful God

inspiration: devotionals, songs, and Greg's sermon

this morning, i had a "kairos" moment with God.
i was worshiping at Seacoast, as i do every Sunday morning, singing a song that we sing frequently. the chorus goes:

"faithful God, faithful God
constant source of never failing love
always true to Your word and promise
You are faithful God."

the words are so simple.
the concept is so "easy".
yet when it comes to living it out and trusting what it says is a much different story.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

character check.

inspiration: Ernest is back at theWell!

after being on sabbatical and away from theWell for like 7 weeks, Pastor Ernest was back tonight!
he shared thoughts on what God spoke to him about while he was gone.
some questions/things i took away from his message tonight:

what in my character needs to be more like Jesus?
i need to be more intentional with those around me (and with Christ)
in our weaknesses, Christ's power is revealed

Sunday, June 26, 2011

God's plans > my expectations.

inspiration: my devotional + about to start reading another book

around october of last year, i bought "Daily Encouragement for Single Women".
now if i'm completely honest, i had hoped that by the time i got through it, i wouldn't be wearing the label "single woman", but that isn't the case. i've enjoyed going through the book and being encouraged every morning before i go to work. i still have about 60 more days in it; i realize that even though i'm not in any rush to dive headfirst into a serious relationship with someone, it's still discouraging to know that i'm still "single".

my expectations were dashed.
not from the book itself.
but just the implications that if i were somehow more "spiritual" and devoted more time to Christ, it would instantly attract someone else.