Tuesday, October 5, 2010

awkward singleness....

inspiration: i'm about to re-read Sacred Singleness by Leslie Ludy.

i'm going through a significant transition in life: about to graduate college and enter the "real world". no more school (for a little while anyways). no more classes. no more tests. no more homework. i'm about to enter the world of a 9-to-5 job (or hopefully earlier for me...), paying big girl money, doing real-world tasks.

right now, throughout all this change, i'm really struggling to be content with singleness. i know that i shouldn't be worried about relationships (which is why i'm consciously choosing to read Sacred Singleness again) because who knows what God has planned for me as i step out of my comfort zone and into a completely new realm of life.

also, yesterday marked the "one year" point of me being "single" and it was just weird to think about. the first 4 or 5 months post-breakup were a huuuuge struggle for me, spiritually. i was broken, angry, defeated, worried. but over time, i started finding healing and trust and wholeness in Christ. but now, it's kind of like a relapse into feeling the same "woe is me" thoughts I had this time last year.

so hopefully re-reading this book will help me find my wholeness and fulfillment in Christ alone, again. and i'll be able to set aside my relationship thoughts and worries and live life to the fullest for the glory of Christ and His Kingdom.

32I would like you to be free from concern. An unmarried man is concerned about the Lord's affairs—how he can please the Lord. 33But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife— 34and his interests are divided. An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband. 35I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.
-1 Corinthians 7:32-35

i hope to overcome my stage of "awkward" singleness and begin to embrace sacred singleness. :)

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